I wrote this post a little while ago when I was having one of those days; I wrote it to empty the overwhelming negative and positive emotions I was feeling. I wrote it to free myself of the burden of striving to be the perfect Mother. Today, I found it, and I'm sharing it for every parent out there. You are not alone.

Today I am the Mum trawling Google for an answer, any answer to our 2 year old's sleep troubles.

Today I was the Mum in the nursery car park, desperately struggling with the weight of the infant carrier and close to tears, begging her child not to have a tantrum.

Today I was the Mum who was stared at. The Mum who was a mess. The Mum with the son who screamed and kicked and threw himself to the floor.

Today I was the Mum who watched them sleep, and felt so grateful to have them in her life.

Today I was the Mum praying for a good nap time, or any nap time at all.

Today I was the Mum who could feel the exhaustion through every bone of her body. The Mum who couldn't walk in a straight line. The Mum who didn't know how she would get through the day.

Today I was the Mum my toddler clung to.
Today I was the Mum my baby beamed at.

Today I was the Mum who clung to my children and cried.

Today I was the Mum who wanted my toddler to need anyone but me.

Today I was the Mum who couldn't cope.
The Mum who lost it.
The Mum who would do anything for 5. Minutes. Peace.

Today I was the Mum torn between a screaming baby and a toddler making unreasonable demands.
The Mum who couldn't put the broken banana back together.
The Mum who fought valiantly not to give into the demands for more, more, more.

Today I was the Mum who almost cried when the kind waitress saw me struggling and carried my drink to the table and gave me 3 extra marshmallows.
The Mum who did cry when she told me I was doing great.

Tomorrow, I hope I'm the other Mum.
The Mum telling other Mum's, you've got this.
You're doing great.

We're in this together.

The Mum who knows it's so hard.
But it's also fleeting.

Today, I am the Mum of two beautiful boys.
The Mum who will never sleep soundly again.
The luckiest Mum in the world.

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