Two Little Indikiduals
At least once a day I find myself overwhelmed at the fact that I am a mother of two; that I am a mother at all. I see my old school friends marrying, having children of their own and I think back to my school days and how different things felt back then; how difficult things seemed at times and how we were trying to figure out who we were in a world of acne-ridden skin (one huge spot could spoil any occasion) and social ineptness. I feel as if months have passed, not years, and sometimes I find myself thinking how are these two little humans my responsibility, when I still feel so young?
Sometimes I get scared because they depend on me, because I am their mother, one of the most important figures in their life and because I haven't really got a clue what I'm doing. Seeing their personalities bloom blows me away and reminds me even more of the fact that they are growing up so fast, which means I must be growing up too, perhaps even without realising it.
I find so much delight in matching their clothes to their firecracker personalities and Indikidual are a brand I have absolutely fallen in love with. The boys have barely been out of these playsuits since we got them and they are perfect.
My two little boys. I say it over & over again and sometimes it still doesn't sink in. Thankyou for helping me to see myself as someone who is capable of being a Mother, albeit not always a good one, but a Mother all the same. I've exhausted this quote but it sums up how I feel entirely—
"Motherhood is a choice you make everyday, to put someone else's happiness and well-being ahead of your own, to teach the hard lessons, to do the right thing even when you're not sure what the right thing is.. and to forgive yourself, over and over again, for doing everything wrong."