Jesse Blue / 4 months.
I am on the verge of an emotional breakdown. Today, I got Blue weighed and before us was a teeny tiny newborn, she must've been a week or two old, and all I could think was it wasn't so long ago that was me, with my teeny tiny newborn, and now he's not even close to that anymore! He's a chunky baby; long gone are the twitchy movements, the skinny limbs and the wrinkly skin. He coo's, he holds and plays with his feet, he smiles and laughs, he's growing up so damn quick!
I'm almost a week late with this update but handily, we had Blue weighed today due to a GP visit a few weeks ago where there was concern over his reflux worsening and though he had gained weight, it wasn't as much as expected. We were told to ensure we visited clinic every 2 weeks and I was worried we'd start to run into some issues, but I'm over-the-moon to find out he's absolutely piled it on since the last appointment. Last time, he weighed 12 pounds 4oz but only a couple of weeks later he's 13 pounds 12oz! His reflux is also under control with alot less sick than before and he is a chunk who is quickly outgrowing 3-6 months clothes.
Though we appear to have hit the 4 month sleep regression as Blue hasn't been doing the long stretches he was before and wakes several times a night, it feels nowhere near as bad as it did with Archie and I just can't put my finger on whether it's because we are just so used to being tired or whether he's just not quite as bad with it! He generally feeds to sleep around 8.45pm in the evenings as he did before, but tends to wake around 12, 3 and 5.
On the plus side, he tends to be easily settled with a quick feed/change and sometimes if he doesn't appear to be going back to sleep, I'll pop him in the snuz next to me and he will quite happily coo away until he falls asleep on his own, something that he does quite regularly and that absolutely amazes me because Archie didn't self-settle until close to a year! It also makes me feel alot better as I was a little worried that I feed him to sleep too much and that he'll become too dependent on it, though this time I often think who the hell cares as I know it won't last long.*sobs*
He has no set routine during the day and just tends to sleep when we're out or in the wrap. His daytime sleep doesn't appear to be affecting night time so I'm not really too concerned. The second child just seems to fall into place around the first one's routine which is nice.
Still breastfeeding! It's been 4 months now and I'm so so proud of myself, I'm just sad I wasn't able to achieve the same with Archie due to a huge lack in confidence and feeling uncomfortable feeding in public. I really have no qualms this time round; if Jesse needs feeding, so be it, and I think it's a huge factor in why I've been able to continue this far. I haven't expressed at all this month but I'm starting to feel the itch for just a little time away from the baby (an hour or two would be fab, please) so I may have to build up a supply soon. I just find it so much easier to just be with him and feed him when he needs it. He's thriving and piling on the weight and I feel so blessed we've had such a bump-free feeding journey so far.
I know the big 4 months is when it's possible to begin weaning but I don't think we're anywhere near that point. In my eyes, Jesse is still such a tiny baby; he doesn't yet roll or sit up unaided (though he tries desperately) and I'm more than happy holding off until 6 months or later (I'm not so eager with the second after the messy experience with the first).
I'm totally biased but isn't he cute? He looks so much like his Daddy whereas Archie has always looked like me and his eyes are this really bewitching hazel colour; they're not a dark or obvious brown like his brothers or his Daddy's and they're not a bluey/grey like mine, they're a really pale green colour with flecks of brown (too descript?). His hair has lightened on top (though I'm not sure if it's just thinned or appears different due to a little cradle cap) but is still thick and dark at the back. He has the cutest chubby cheeks and big feet and he's just a chunky ball of squidge!
We recently had an appointment discussing Blue's reflux as we started to see an increase in sick even though we hadn't changed his gaviscon dose, but that seems to have settled again. I've only been giving him gaviscon once or twice a day, always in the evenings but only occasionally in the mornings. His symptoms are so mild I wasn't sure he needed it but we did stop and saw the change in him (especially at night) so he's back on a minimal dose again.
I've expressed concerns over Blue's umbilical hernia in the last few updates but I'm pleased to report it's almost gone! I was told it would more than likely remain the same size and as Blue grew, it wouldn't grow with him and that seems to be the case as it's so much smaller than it was before, I've no doubt that in a few months it'll be completely gone.
Not much to report besides so many smiles, lots of laughter and interaction. He's extremely inquisitive of his surroundings and hates lying down. Even when he's in his bouncy chair at an angle, he will attempt to throw his head forward to sit up. He's rarely on his activity mat as he prefers sitting so I think he may skip rolling and go straight to the sitting stage. I'm sure it'll be a little while yet but he is improving daily with his head control and balance and we've bought him a proper sit-up chair for Christmas that he's going to love (plus we'll be digging out Archie's old jumperoo).
It's a tricky one as Archie was a very happy baby and Blue also is but he seems so different somehow. I think it may have something to do with being the second child, but he's just so laidback; He's quite happy to sit by himself alot of the time just watching his big brother and he rarely cries. He's full of smiles and is just an absolute joy. I've said it before but I believe he's the ying to Archie's yang and I imagine he'll be the calm to Archie's storm; I have no doubt that he'll be a very different character to A.
Blue is getting much more used to Archie now; he's much more willing to accept his strong, sloppy kisses and cuddles and doesn't get quite as jumpy and nervous around him. A is also learning to not be so rough with him and often tries to settle him if upset. It's funny as Archie will literally copy everything he sees an adult doing with Blue; if we shh him and tell him it's ok, Archie will do the same and I often hear Archie saying Hello pumpkin! to him as it must be something I say alot!
THINGS I DON'T WANT TO FORGET
There's something so amazing about that point where a child really starts to look at you; when they stare at you so intensely as if they're taking in every part of your face, as if they're really seeing you for the first time. Blue gets so distracted when I'm feeding him now and if he catches my eye, he starts smiling & giggling and forgetting to feed. Sometimes I'll glance down and catch him just gazing up at me, it's very cute!
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