01

I always wondered if things would be as exciting the second time round; would we feel the same buzz even though we'd hit all the milestones before with A? Would it feel quite so special when it wasn't completely brand new? I suppose I was silly to even think it would be anything but special to see you grow and thrive, and of course it's just as wonderful, and even better because we have the added extra of your brother experiencing each special moment too.

02

The adorable way your hair curls around your ears.

03

I couldn't imagine a boy different to A; he was what we knew, his bounding energy and his fearless mind. He throws himself head first into everything and I'd assumed you would be just the same. You are just as fearless, but wary too, cautious to take those first steps, careful not to stretch to the edge if you know there's a drop the other side. Seeing your brain whirring and those quiet thoughts working is just fascinating.

04

The way you snuggle in to the crook of the shoulder of whomever asks you for a cuddle.

05

I breastfed for 6 weeks with Archie and gave up for various reasons, but felt an instant regret once my milk had dried up. I missed it desperately and felt a fire to continue if I ever had that chance in the future. You were my second chance and almost a year on, we are still in the midst of our nursing journey. It's been difficult at times, but more wonderful than I expected; it's been a magical power and a hindrance at times but I wouldn't have changed it for the world.

06

The way you're already desperate to grow up; turning your nose up at your dinner and grasping for a chicken fillet or corn-on-the-cob.

07

The way we're still not quite used to seeing those huge teeth take over your whole face.

08

We did co-sleep with A, but only when necessary; most of the time we sleep trained and A slept in his cot. He was in our room until at least a year and slept in with us when ill but it's still been nothing like our sleep journey with you. You nap in your cot and start the night off in there, but you'll always share our bed from 10pm every single night. It's as if you are completely averse to sleep training and you still nurse all through the night and yet it works for us. I feel so much less pressure to force you into your own bed and room, knowing that it won't take long until, like A, you're sleeping through in your own space each night.

09

The way (thanks to my magical boobs) I can always calm your tears instantly.

10

Your birth was crazy from start to finish; contractions kicked in and got real so fast and from a home birth, to a hospital birth and a hypno birth, it was one of the craziest days of my life. When you finally arrived, amidst the c-section preparation, 4 pushes in, I felt so much relief that you were safe and I was safe and that you were there and breathing and you. Every birth is special, but yours came with the terrifying thought that we could've lost you that day, and I'll never forget how indebted we are to everyone who was a part of your very unique delivery.

11

The way we're so excited to witness your first steps but so desperate for this first year to slow down all at the same time.